Panic attack

the wind cuts slashes into my eyes and skin

the tears slowly pool onto my lashes

and smack down onto my cheeks

smacking me like the constant feeling of loneliness i feel on a daily basis

i hear the piano slowly get louder around me

but still, all i hear is the wind smacking me around like that little bit of loneliness i feel in my gut everyday

the piano gradually gets louder and more chaotic

and my heart starts to beat faster

ba-boom ba-boom

my gut dropping to the ground in nervousness and anxiety

not knowing what to do i keep crying

i keep letting the wind cut me and slash me

the piano finally reaches the loudest it can get and i feel it in my chest, my stomach, my head

the pounding of the keys

the pounding of the bass

the beats of my heart

ba-boom ba-boom

the noise all gets too much

but then

that silence returns and I’m left with my thoughts again

and the piano silences

my pounding heart finally stops to a sudden halt

my gut finally hitting the ground in the bottomless oblivion it dived into