freedom

freedom

something I never had as a child, as a teenager and as an adult

freedom to go where I please and do what I want

freedom and release from the hurt

release from negativity

i feel it consuming me whole, chipping away at me slowly like a parasite that wants you to suffer

i feel it quickly taking hold of my life and it's consuming all the time I have that I have no time for myself

i go to sleep at 4am and she wakes up at 11

i cook dinner and she eats

i sleep while she stays awake in my mind like the parasite

i laugh while she while she cries

okay