cry

Some nights I feel like crying

Some nights I feel like staying up all night

Some nights I feel like screaming

Some nights I feel like banging my head against the wall.

Some nights I feel like thinking about all the ways people hurt me. All the ways I hurt myself.

Some nights I feel like numbing my pain with anything.

Some nights I feel like crying. A body wracking sob.

Not because I'm not happy. Not because I'm not content. Not because I'm sad. Not because I'm angry. Not because I'm upset. But just because I feel like I need to.

Some nights I feel like crying and tonight is one of those nights.